JB_Jun 2010

Damn!!! I’ve lost most of my personal belonging here in JB. Apalah malang nasib aku kat Jb nih. Mula-mula, hilang gelang tangan. EMAS tu!!!! Lepas tu, THUMBRIVE!!! Dah la dalam tu ade info pasal company, my research masa study dulu, personal picture... Malang sangat-sangat aku kat JB ni. Ya Allah... Ujian yang Kau bagi ni sangat-sangat buat aku rasa susah. If I pass this ujian, please give me the something good in return so that I don’t really feel the lost. Miserable you know!!!! It is like masa tiba-tiba berhenti, and I found myself lost in a middle of nowhere. I’ve tried to figure out what was happened but find no answer. Now, I am scared to death to think of what will happen next. God, I bet You know how I feel right now. All I ever wanted this time is going home. Right NOW!!!! Tolonglah permudahkan urusan aku di sini. Percepatkanlah masa supaya aku boleh cepat bersama keluarga. Ya Allah, tolonglah hambaMu yang tidak berdaya ini...

Ada satu lagi problem aku dapat kat JB. Aku syak, sorang daripada colleagues aku ada simpan perasaan dekat aku. Oh, Man!!!! Cemane nak buat nih!!! Kalau lepak ngan dia, memang dia payung la.. kira standard lelaki budiman. Yang drastiknye, He bought me shirt untuk pakai dengan dia. Hish.. and mende ni akan buat boss aku yang sangat joyah tu perasan there’s something between us. Hate this!!!! Aku paling tak suke ada scandal dengan officemate. SHIT!!!! As what my boss pernah cakap, pandai-pandailah bawa diri. If this thing really happen, and boss dapat tau, masak la aku... people may say that just ignore what others think if this will make you happy. But, this will really make me feel uncomfortable!!! He is such a nice guy but... not suit with me... Hey, I am not really choosey ok!!!! It is just because he is younger than me and NON MUSLIM. I don’t feel really comfortable to have a so-called special relationship dengan orang macam ni. Help me find ways to tell him by not telling him that I can only be his good friend rather than the special one... Tuhanku!!!!! Kenapa aku mesti kena lalu bende ni???? Ya right. i don’t really learn from the past and keep doing the same mistake. Terlalu layan orang dengan baik sampai orang salah faham. Hello???!!!! Kalau orang baik dengan kita, I don’t see anything wrong kita baik dengan orang... Karma. Buat baik dibalas baik. Calling for guys out there. Please...Please... Please... jangan perasan, k???? Alahai... apalah nak jadi dengan aku ni... selalu sangat buat orang misunderstood.